The Times I Knew I Was Gay


About The Book

A charming, highly relatable graphic memoir that follows one young woman’s adventures in coming out and coming of age.

Ellie always had questions about who she was and how she fit in. As a girl, she wore black, obsessed over Willow in Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and found dating boys much more confusing than many of her friends did. As she grew older, so did her fears and a deep sense of unbelonging. From her first communion to her first girlfriend via a swathe of self-denial, awkward encounters, and everyday courage, Ellie tells her story through gorgeous illustrations—a fresh and funny self-portrait of a young woman becoming herself.

The Times I Knew I Was Gay reminds us that people sometimes come out not just once but again and again; that identity is not necessarily about falling in love with others, but about coming to terms with oneself. Full of vitality and humor, it will ring true for anyone who has taken the time to discover who they truly are.

About The Author

Eleanor Crewes is a London-based illustrator, author, and graphic artist who graduated from University of the Arts in London in 2016. Her debut graphic memoir The Times I Knew I Was Gay originated as a self-published zine in 2017. It eventually became a small book, published by Good Comics and exhibited at the Toronto Comic Arts Festival, Thought Bubble, Brighton Illustration Fair, and The Lakes International Comic Arts Festival. This new and expanded version represents her American debut.

Product Details

  • Publisher: Scribner (October 6, 2020)
  • Length: 320 pages
  • ISBN13: 9781982147105

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Raves and Reviews

In The Times I Knew I Was Gay, Eleanor Crewes gives us a gloriously honest, gently funny and touching tale that will resonate long after the reading.

"In this charming, funny comic, Crewes traces the moments she realised she might be gay, from her holy communion to her first date with a woman. She describes the “burst of life” she feels when she comes out once and for all – and the regret that it has taken her so long."
-- Kate Davies, author of In At The Deep End

“Eleanor Crewes totally blew me away. The art is evocative and the story is authentic and hilarious. As a gay woman I’m constantly looking for content that feels true to my own experiences, that helps me understand myself more -- in this book, I found that.”
-- Tillie Walden, author of Spinning and On a Sunbeam

"Navigating one’s own relation to the world has never been simple, but Crewes’ deftly drawn lines don’t divide her from the norm, they place her lovingly within its problematic embrace."
-- Jenny Robins, The Quietus

"A really poignant look at the fuzziness and confusions of queer life. It was beautiful."
-- Ruby Tandoh

“Ellie Crewes' honesty should be applauded in quietly and succinctly challenging a social obsession with trying to fit people's sexual identities into restrictive categories.”
-- Nicola Streeten, author of The Inking WomanBilly, Me & You

“This fuller-length The Times I Knew I Was Gay surpasses expectations, with Crewes providing a coming-of-age style account of coming out that is witty, poignant and beautifully observed ... Undoubtedly set to be one of the year’s most talked about UK small press offerings.”
-- Andy Oliver, Broken Frontier